Where Nights Sorrow

Un-break My Heart- -

Tag： love,    October,    birthday,    breakup                                          

 

Oct 1st has passed silently. I laughed at days when I thought there would be hesitation whether to send him a short message or not. Later I understood the answer would be a definite No. I had refused to talk when countered on roads, why's it necessary to send any message? What follows is a kind of expectation, thinking he might take the birthday as a chance to reestablish our communication, but predicted it's not going to happen. And I was right.

 

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Honestly speaking I rarely predicted anything wrong throughout our relationship. He's thoroughly predictable. He keeps that obscure attitude when met. But it's nonsense. I understand he would react as ugly if I continue the enthusiasm. What explains best is that, I'm losing someone who has little love for me, but he's losing the one who deeply treasured every minute being together. That's why he pities my departure but I nevertheless behaves like merciless. Never forget those miserable night wandering outside alone wishing to find him. Never forget how I was ignored in his dorm. Never forget those messages left unanswered. I was almost ruined. I've got to learn to protect myself. I'm blessed with a wise mind not to be tortured by any fool.

 

Now several months has passed since our last talk. He never asked for a reason. Never had I received a short message he sent first since the very beginning of our relationship. I was too tired trying to find a clue to prove I'm in love. It's so difficult.

 

Oct. 1st has passed, so had our last chance of reunite. I won't spare any effort any more. I hated Xie Chaopeng, however he's being nothing but naïve. Now this one is dumb. Dumb person absolutely NOT! I'm still young, having lots of future fun to come. How's my big guy doing? And how's Jin Fan doing? I miss them all. It's a fair play in the long run. Just remember how I meanly and greedily demanded Jin Fan to behave in my way. I was too cruel to him but he was that nice. Now it's my turn to suffer.

 

Next time I meet someone, ask myself, Does it matter if I cry? Does it matter if I kneel…… I'm blessed with a royal mind not to mingle with fools.

- 作者： 夜之哀伤 访问统计：　2005年10月2日, 星期日 21:25 加入博采